I’m fairly sure girls realise this a lot quicker than guys, but men generally don’t do a lot of thinking when it comes to sex, until they’re well shot of their teenage years. There are far too many hormones, and far too much puberty going on, and everything is just so new and exciting that you don’t really spend much time attempting to answer the why.
I considered oral sex (which, being a teenage boy, was provided by the girl) to be the kind of altruistic act that you just didn’t see in the world any more. It mystified me, the idea that someone could do something that seemed so generally uncomfortable and, at least in the end, somewhat gross, made me think that they must be pretty amazing people, these girls who so happily put our teenage penises in their mouths.
What I was entirely failing to understand is that just because it doesn’t have a direct physical payoff of having your fun bits played with doesn’t mean that it’s not fun. It doesn’t mean that you can’t get off on that very idea of something that’s not meant to go in your mouth going in your mouth. Of being able to use that tongue, that’s been trained for decades through moving food around your mouth, on something that’s actually going to react back. Of being so wonderfully, completely in control of another person. When you’ve got a penis in your mouth, you’re the World’s Sole Ruler. Although, admittedly, that requires me not to have a hand in your hair holding you in place while I make you choke on it, but that’s getting side tracked.
It took realising all this to realise that I really wanted to get my face between a woman’s legs. To have the kind of control that I’d witnessed was something that wasn’t just a desire but a necessity. And when I finally got it, it became the spark that lit the fire of my Dominance. To utterly dictate exactly what a woman feels and experiences, all while she’s bucking and squirming underneath me, is just about the most powerful I’ve ever felt.
And, armed with that knowledge, I’d like nothing more than to hop in a time machine and slap my teenage, idiotic self about with it. Hopefully he’d learn a thing or two.
